I Am A Big Brave Girl

This week I attempt to verbalise how I have found braveness (is that a word?!) and also speaking up about my worse case scenario(s) as I launch into a new phase of my life.

I have given away the security of working in a school – for the first time in my life! I know! I started going to school when I was four – a March baby – and then I kept on going to some form of institution from that day forth. School to learn, Uni to learn, back to school to teach. They are great spaces – good payers (not many schools go broke) with a ready made social life, superannuation that is automated and fab holidays.

But it simply isn’t where I want to keep heading. I want to run my own version of a school – with learning, growing and socialising (and superannuation!) This school is called ‘The Back Room’ and it’s going to be focusing on the school of big old life. There won’t be a protractor or bunsen burner in sight.

Yes, I am slightly nervous – but the more I put myself out there, the more I realise that any negative self talk is simply my own. And once I have run through the thoughts ‘What if people laugh at me?’ and ‘Do I really have the skills to pull this off?’ and the old chestnut ‘But what if no one comes?’ I realise that if that’s as bad as it gets, then I have already experienced it. My rejection of myself is far worse than the rejection at the hands of someone else. If it came to a choice, I would rather speak up than be liked, accepted and believed by others. I love, accept and believe in myself and that is all that matters.

This school – with this particular teacher –  is in its infancy, and the first class of the new term is kicking off in about 10 days time and I would love you to enrol. It’s called a ‘Women’s Circle‘ and it’s for 10 chicks who just know that the time is right. All of the details are below…

Image by Nika Akin from Pixabay 

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  1. Thank you so much for this great post. As I was reading it, I felt like you were putting my story into words – the fears, excitement and anticipation of new things to come. I, too, am from a teaching background – teacher librarian. I am branching out to do something very similar to you – retreats, classes, workshop, guest speaking. It is mighty scary and I often wonder why am I doing this when I have such a safe steady job. For me it is not so much the actual lessons per se but the whole concept of running a business! Now that is something completely out of my comfort zone. Anyway, thank you so much for your honesty. I am going to follow your lead and share some of the messy things with my circle as well. I am based in Toowoomba. If you are ever up this way it would be great, to have a cuppa and share stories. BTW I am slightly envious of your backroom. I really want one of those…

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